I never thought that I would get the opportunity to study again, as an adult and having a full-time job. But to tell you the truth, it has helped me to keep the stress at bay. And as quoted here by Einstein; ‘but training of the mind to think‘, there is what the studying has helped me, it has helped me to tap into a different part of my brain, that makes me look at things a bit different. Not that I have changed or anything, but rather starting to see things more clearly and knowing what I want to do in life.
For many years I have been wanting to work in law enforcement, not necessary as a police but sort of in the background. I was not exactly sure how to do it or where to even start. But one day when I was driving home from work I was listening to the radio and there was an advertisement, advertising about studying Crime Scene Investigation, to become a CSI. And I remember thinking to myself “I want to do that.” So, I started to research where I could join such course, and I spent some time looking at different options.
I started to buy books about forensic science, and once I started to read about I was hooked. I never thought this was something that would interest me that much, but I felt the urge of learning, and the more I read about it the more I wanted to learn. So, here I was thinking that I can’t do that because…you know when you come up with all the reasons to why you cannot do things that you really want to do. Your ego is sort of putting you down. Has anyone ever experienced that? I have a suspicion that you have.
Anyway, after all my research was done I found an eLearning college close to where I live in fact, and they offered an eLearning course in Forensic Science for reasonable fee. Because I had to start somewhere, and who knows where it will lead to? I was thinking to myself that I have to try this at least. So I set myself a goal, to sign up in September, on my birthday in fact. And this was in June this year, that I discovered my ‘new’ passion. And what did I do with my time between June and September you might wonder, why wait so long? Well, I do have a full-time job and sometimes it takes a little bit of planning. But I was determined and I want to do this! And, this kept me going.
I was taking some free online courses via edx.org in the mean time, I finished one course on October 20th where I’ve learnt a little bit about the psychology of criminal justice. It was extremely interesting because we were studying all the phases; from that the crime was committed until the conviction in court. I received my certificate from that course the other day, and was over the moon happy to have reached 82% overall. For me that is huge and of course it encourages me to continue. And I didn’t want to start this new course knowing nothing about the subject, so by doing these pre-studies I had a pretty good picture of what a Forensic Scientist or Criminalist actually do. And now one month into the course, I have learnt a great deal and it has been a lot of hard work and you really need to be disciplined when you’re doing distance learning, and get your nose into the books. But I really do enjoy it, and today I submitted my first college assessement ever and it felt great. I was doubting myself there for a bit thinking how will I manage to do this. But once I started it was not so bad. The first section was a big one containing chemistry, biology and computing. And the next will be the crime scene investigation part.
And my advice to all of you that has an inner ‘flame’ about something but you are not sure whether you will be able or capable to do it. Just go out there and get it! You can do it! I am certain of it. I mean, I don’t know where this course will take me, but I am learning something, and God knows where I will be in five or even ten years. Nobody knows that. I have spent so much time doing things that were expected of me, and now after many years living here in Ireland, I have grown and sort of taking my life in my own hands and do the things I want to do and the way I want to do them.
I don’t think that just because you are reaching a certain age, you’re suppose to give up life and passing out on things that you would want to do. Just go out there and do it!! And never let anyone ever tell you differently that you cannot go out there and follow your dreams, or whatever it might be. It is only YOU that can make that decision, right?
~ Eva’s Chronicles ~